Back At It

So I've been out of the blogosphere for a while now, due to a lot of factors. Mostly I'm a lazy bum, but I've also been really busy with 3 kids and sports and work and volunteering and choir that I haven't had the time to even think of a good topic. Turns out being busy also makes me painfully boring. Then I accidentally deleted the wifi driver from our old laptop so the only way to get onto the internet to write was to hide in the closet under the stairs where the only ethernet cable is, or use my phone which made me stabby. But alas! I finally have a fully functioning computer in a sunny spot NOT under the stairs, and I'm itching to start blogging again. I let my oldest read an old post about him and he laughed and laughed, and I remembered why I started this whole blog thing in the first place. Then he made me a cup of coffee and I remembered why having kids was such a smart idea on my part. Shortly after finishing that sentence my boys starting screaming at each other about why the other one sucks, and once again I find myself question the decision to have multiple children. So I'm drinking my coffee and pretending I'm alone in a coffee shop somewhere where children aren't allowed. 

Who Am I and What Am I Doing Here

8 years ago I started a blog. The Rational Mind of a Crazy Woman was my baby. It gave me an outlet and place to work out my thoughts, but more importantly it reignited my love of writing. I haven’t posted anything there in a really long time, and since I started that blog my life has changed significantly. What hasn’t changed is my desire to write and share my thoughts and air my grievances, so I’m starting this new blog. This blog represents a little more of who I am now, but I am still that Crazy Woman too so for the time being I’ll be keeping that blog active as well. If you’re interested in what crazy ramblings I had back then please check it out at http://rationalmindofacrazywoman.blogspot.com If you are going to stick around and read my posts, you should know that some things have not and will not change. I still curse like a sailor. I say what I want. If you have a problem with that or you get offended too easily, kindly remove the stick from your ass and find a new blog to read. Cheers!

Time Marches On

So Facebook shows you memories now of what you've done on this date in past years; I'm sure you've seen them. Today it showed me that 5 years ago I announced to the world (well, Facebook world anyway) that I was expecting baby number 3. I was struck with a multitude of emotions; nostalgia, happiness, sadness, and even loss. What I realized is that it's been 5 years since I saw 2 little pink lines, 5 years since the last time I would ever see those lines. Most days I'm happy that we are done having children. 3 is a lot to handle. Our family feels complete and all of my kids sleep through the night. But sometimes, on days like today, I'm sad that I'll never do it again. No pink lines, no morning sickness, no anticipation. No midnight wake up calls or poopie diapers or spit up covered clothes. No more breastfeeding and 1st steps and hearing "mama" for the first time. No, my kids aren't babies anymore. Big kids are amazing too and I love who mine are becoming, and most days I'm happy that I don't have to dress them or feed them. I get to have real conversations with them and they help me do their laundry. But for tonight I'm going to look at old pictures on Facebook and definitely not cry.